At my last appointment, I was getting frustrated because my therapist just kept telling me to think positive thoughts and to force myself to stop whenever I start to worry about life circumstances. All I was doing was being argumentative by saying that I disagreed that those things would fix my depression. I felt bad because I felt like all I was doing was making his job hard and being a difficult, stubborn patient. So finally, I blurted out, "I don't even know why I'm here." He seemed kind of taken aback and later told me he didn't want me to waste anymore of my money or time if I felt therapy was unhelpful.

I feel like I was a giant jerk and came across as insulting someone trying to help me. My reason for saying what I did wasn't to suggest that I think he's stupid or his approach to therapy is stupid. I just felt bad because nothing he was telling me was resonating with me, and I couldn't find better words to express that I felt like I should probably just leave because I was just being an annoyance and I hate being a bother to people.