If you are doing poorly I think the psychologist is putting too lofty and too long term of goals in front of you. They should be very short term very simple things that won't overwhelm you and that you can accomplish. Like even taking a shower or brushing your teeth. Baby steps.

I have very cyclical depression and have been at this treatment and recovery stuff for twenty years so I know very well both ends of the spectrum. In the same year I can be suicidal, in bed 18 hours a day to totally functional, productive, content and all that.

I can assure you that there is nothing to fear in getting better. The fear goes away when you are better but there is the fear that it will get bad again and it might.

Getting better doesn't mean you have to go to school and get a masters degree or some big money making career. You slowly figure out what it looks like for you. What you are capable of and so on. Tell that psychologist you can't see that far in the future. I suspect you want to get better but can't envision what that looks like because you are basing it on how you feel now. That's what we do when depressed.

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