Hey Everyone,

In June my therapist told me that I have BPD. I wasn't sure how to react to that news. It was also my last session paid for by my former employer. Yesterday, I watched "Back from the Edge" on youtube

I couldn't help but realize, or connect to, what the patients were saying about their own lives with BPD. My behavior made sense to me after watching this. I have always felt like an outsider. I self sabotage all the time by procrastinating on work and never completing some tasks.

My current dilemma is that I'd like to return to therapy but do not have insurance. I'm currently unemployed and the anxiety, shame, and fear, seem to be keeping me from writing cover letters and submitting resumes.

Is BPD keeping from applying to jobs? I feel like I'm in a catch-22. I need a job for insurance to get better but I've hit a major block in being able to produce any cover letters.

What advice do you all have for me?