For the past year i haven't been talking with anybody except my family on a everyday basis. On one hand i started to try to be polite and greet acquaintances at university (that was a big step for me), on the other i lost contact with friends from high school and didn't make any new ones.
The fact that i didn't find this isolation hard for me , that's what's disturbing.
And i know that partially this is because of my social anxiety. I've started to avoid as much as i can the situations that make me anxious.
Social anxiety aside, my problem is that since i was a kid i had this very big need for introspection . I like thinking to much , and this year i could finally have it in that amount, that it didn't interrupt with my sleeping and studying. It would be fine, if i was doing something productive, but i usually use my time for day dreaming, in recent years not even about my self but about fictional characters from books and movies, remembering the past and trying to determine what i felt at that time, trying to recognize my feelings in general and after all that (when i get interested in some subject and dig up all information i can about it) analyzing and determining my opinion on the subject.
But most of the time it's pretty useless , so i think that i should somehow learn how to stop thinking so much. After all what use do i have of my imaginary dialogues, opinions, day dreams etc. if i like them so much on theory, that i don't do anything in real life.