I don't know much about myself and am a bit confused with my spirituality.

I'm all around understanding with religion, but don't take any affiliation or practice with them, like, Christianity, Buddhism...ect.

I don't take much concept in life. I act upon abnormal behavior or unnatural, disruptive, distorted thoughts, which I have no confusion to why I do it, I just let myself act that way.

I guess to put a thought to consider, I like being considered animalistic, I like treating myself to think of being feral and natural like. I feel serenity, euphoria, peace, and happiness, with thoughts and sounds of nature or even with music that gives into natural tones and peaceful like equality.

I'm heart-felt and feel no negativity when I'm in a state of peace when I think about solitude inside a imaginary world of captivating surrounding woods or upon a tropical island with a big moonlit sky filling the peaceful water with light and the sand with glow. I feel so much good, I can't recognize the feeling, but I feel it has spirituality mixed with it because I don't just feel it emotional.

I don't know if nature is a form of a spirituality that people can have, but I'd like if to be if it is. I'd like to know if there is a specific name to it or if their is more of a practical religion to it. I'd like to further my spirituality with it and find more peace so I'm not so confused with myself and feelings. I'm dealing with anxiety/panic disorder so I'd like a way to control it spiritually as well as getting help with it mentally, which I am now.

Update: I'm not meaning on literal terms with nature, it can be if I'm outdoors, like camping or going on walks in the woods when I'm not in the city. I'm meaning hypothetically and imaginary based. I'm not always connected to technology for the feeling, I do get out often just for the occasion. So please don't make assumptions and become offended. People already have been very rude to me about the question and I'm very sensitive to negative opinions, so I hope for people to be at least modest and sensible to answering my question correctly with out nasty comments.