it didn't go so well .I got the I can choose to go into this situation passive and just survive through it . or I can choose to be strong and stand up for myself . I am terrified and none of this helped. although she did say that she would see me when I get back and we can deal with whatever shape I am in then . I just wanted her to help me feel stronger . I don't have a clue how to just choose to be strong especially when every part of me feels this overwhelming sense of dread and am terrified