It seems like he has on his calendar:
1. 9/09/14 - Skies @ 2:15 - Withhold nurturance
2. 9/16/14 - Skies @ 3:00 - Provide nurturance
3. 9/23/14 - Skies @ 2:15 - Withhold nurturance
4. 9/30/14 - Skies @ 2:15 - Provide nurturance
etc.
I've been trying really hard to think that this is me. But I swear it's not.
When he is more nurturing, I'm more content during the following week, and seem to be more emotionally even. When he is less nurturing, I think about him constantly, contact him more, and have huge transference experiences and insights that I tell him about the following session.
Part of it must be my preoccupied attachment issues. Sometimes it reminds me of how I used to be attracted to 'unavailable men'. I think that happened, in part, because that is was what I was used to as a young child.
Does anyone relate?
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