Please do not apologize for talking. I consider it to be an honor when people are willing to talk about something so personal. Are you seeing a therapist? If not it might be a good idea to help you sort through stuff that is going on.
Please do not let people tell you that it was your imagination!! That is the most painful way to discredit something that can hurt so badly.

We are here for you.

Stay strong,
Jessica

<font color=blue>The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain</font color=blue>
~Seether and Amy Lee