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Old Sep 09, 2014, 06:02 PM
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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom View Post
I'd say I was way worse as a child. I had no impulse control, add drugs, alcohol, hypo-sexuality and psychosis it's just a disastrous combination. I honestly have no idea how my parents raised myself and siblings (All of us have BP or scizoaffective BP). However it has gone from euphoric to disphoric but I truly feel I was all mixed episode as a kid.
Ah, I was "the good one." I hid everything so I wouldn't rock the boat after my two older sisters. I didn't even make a huge splash when I told my parents I was an alcoholic. I had my mood swings, conniptions, got real *****y and agitated, but never got like my eldest sister did when she was a teen. I generally bottled things up for the most part. Funny enough, when I got sober, I kicked a hole in my wall. At 27 years old.

But bottling things up is probably part of the reason why I wound up doing all sorts of drugs and drinking heavily and being promiscuous.
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"Every person, on the foundation of his or her own sufferings and joys, builds for all." ~Albert Camus

Cymbalta, 60mg -- for the depression.
Latuda, 40mg -- for the paranoia (delusional type).
Adderall, 40mg XR & 5 mg reg -- for the ADD.
Xanax, .5 mg as needed -- for the anxiety.
Topamax, 50mg -- still figuring this one out.

MDD, but possibly have some form of Bipolar Disorder. Then again, I could be paranoid . . .

Well, at least I still have my sense of humor.