This is something i've dealt with since a young age, what age I can't remember but I know it was young.
I know th at some of it is due to my trauma's and PTSD but why did I start to get this at a young age?

I see things in a daydream and they are very VERY vivid, I tense in fear etc, and 99% of the time they are situations i've never been in.

At a young age I kept having the same imagse over and over again about the same girl etc. I had it for so long that I wrote a book about it, had it called the juror and ended up being a woman who was on a jury for a murder trial I believe, even though my repeated daydream wasn't a juror but I decided to put it in that setting, not sure why.

Anyways I wrote about the same things she went through as the girl did who was taken off the school yard or nabbed off the street always by the same set of guys. Faces I couldn't see of course.

I printed the story out when it was finished and put it in a white binder. I still have it to this day and no ones read it.

I've told my pdoc this a few times in our 10+ years of me seeing her and she told me that they are fears and to change the negative outcome into something positive, the police coming, running away, breaking free etc.

That worked maybe once. If I hear a noice it will go away ,but when it's quiet it comes back.

I don't get it.