Yes, i'll have to make a plan of that.

It seems like he was somewhat withholding 2 sessions in a row--now I feel so incredibly desperate. It really plays into my issues, and I start to get really submissive and appeasing. Uggg.

And I'm getting sick of being so vulnerable with him all of the time, like when I tell him how desperate I feel. His nurturance feels intoxicating to me...Sometimes it feels like I need it as much as I need water.