i very much second seeing another T concurrently in order to leave this one. maybe try one, or a few, out for a few sessions until you find one you feel good about and then switch over to them. that way you don't have to be without a T but can be getting better help. a big part of T is being able to be accepted for the parts of ourself we are afraid to show others. if your T isn't handling those parts of you well then how can there be any trust to do the work with her? take care of yourself IG. i hope you can get off this rollercoaster soon.