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About 3 years ago, I guess it must have been now, I swallowed a whole bunch of prescription med's in a bid to end my life. I don't even know what I took. I had a shoebox full of med's & I just started swallowing. I was told, when the emergency responders arrived, I was already basically gone. They revived me.

Anyway, for some time thereafter, I also had delusions. I had previously worked in a unit of a mental health program. And while I was on a medical floor, before I was transferred to psych, I imagined the entire staff of the psych unit I had worked on had been transferred, en mass, to this medical floor. I recall how humiliated I felt knowing all of these individuals I had worked with as peers were now going to be taking care of me & telling me what to do. And this was not the only delusion I suffered. I also had absolutely terrifying dreams for quite some time. And the worst part of it was none of the professionals who were caring for me ever suggested the possibility what I was experiencing were hallucinations. So, for quite some time, I continued to presume they were real.

I obviously don't know you. But I feel pretty confident in saying the things you're experiencing are not real. Please talk with your psychiatrist, therapist or other mental health professionals you're working with about your concerns. My best wishes to you...