wow, I know you know what to do, its just scary , change is scary, but sometimes the outcome is good, i been through lots of change recently and thought i couldnt make it, remember my posts, I didnt leave therapists they left me, not because they were mean, but they chose other jobs, but we had connections in place , a year plus, maybe you have more years, but its not the quantity but the quality. I was dumped twice ( the way i see it) its heart breaking, but you move on. I had the best support here on this forum.
I know its different for you. its the same emotions though. I support whatever you decide. Sending you xox