I can't stop feeling randomly psychotic like for some reason. Just moments ago I was feeling fine and suddenly all I want to do is smile like a dork and laugh. I'm getting edgy and pacing while fiddling with my hands in my hair and clothes. I just don't seem to calm down until something instantly agitates me, but I return to feeling overly active.

It's kind of hard enough to have an overbearing inconclusive thought to if I'm actually feeling excited or not. I really can't tell if I'm happy or anything. The point I'm trying to make is how I should calm myself. I'm not normally this excited sometimes, it happens I know, but it's almost seldom and when I am I get sadistic thoughts of harming so I don't want to get overreacted in case I do get so far.