I have never been married and no kids. That's not what I have chosen in my life. I am about upper middle aged and I feel a big sense of shame because I never succeeded with women.

Though I did come close to getting married a couple of times in the past. But they were a long time ago. With the first one, I loved her. But it was an off and on relationship. She told me that she wanted to get married to me but I turned her down because I felt like I was too young and she didn't seem dependable. I regretted not marrying her a few years later.

The second time was with a woman that I was not in love with. I liked her only as a friend, but she wanted more. She put pressure on me and I had to let her go. I never regretted my decision, but I did regret for has happened for me after that.