i seem to be a boil on life and society's butt and need popped

just got banned another forum today hey i might have even been banned here

crap i lost count and track after a couple hundred no exaggeration

im adhd they said they never saw all my problems packed into it before

i have communication learning and other crap on those lines

i ask does that give disability supposed to be caring BS sites right to hate and ignore

i lost count of names called fights

because i post this way and cant change it or post to long or come across wrong

im ignored most site no answer or 2 with 99 ignored views

im 40 and done with childish hate games that screw our kids and adults up

but it still hurts and i keep trying to get on sites for contact and all even though i should quit trying

i accept the long road thats been chosen to walk alone and outcast

off the net life even hates me i lost 3 friends in a week one from school

my wife is nuts and hangs around for some reason

other than posts like this i just have given up life net

the ban was because a member called my post and answer not fight of flam

hey you call it out i will respond i do prefer to keep fights and call outs to pms

dont know its a new undiagnosed disorder the disorder of instant repulsiveness

im to old to run around pweeez be my friend or my lifes over but it still hurts

im a great person no one wants to know

im not a social person and running out of sites so its time to suck it up and accept the path given to walk

i worked as lead alarm investigator i have held hands of dying accident people or held children dying from a accident

i saw to much of what no one else ever sees monsters evil like tar that wont come off

but i never seen real monsters till i went online i saw worse than my job ever showed me

me and others beaten belittled badgered torn to pieces in my old days tear you your life emotions all that down self worth

wow i have yet to have a site respond more than 3 unless a angry name caller or retard type right and we wont ignore you

im nice easy going ask nice or pm i will relook and explain better it comes out wrong or jumbled or wrong impression

i emailed my hospital ceo on the er tossing me calling me names and he wanted to arrest and commit me my counselor told him no

beats me looks and sound ok to my eyes even been told if reread my posts they can be mostly understood

beats me sorry to wast your time i wont post anymore