Well, I wish it were just as simple as deleting his number and email-but it's not. Stopdog, you always seem so flippant and no emotional attachment to anyone-especially T's-so maybe that would work for you-but not me. I have both his cell and his work number and his email memorized. I did delete them from my contact but that doesn't just make it go away. I do appreciate y'all's advice on distraction and thinking about what it is I'm trying to get out of doing these things...I'm still trying to figure that out.
Right now I feel like I will email him on Thursday morning and tell him I'm sick and just cancel-because I feel bad about doing these things to him, he originally wasn't planning on seeing anyone that evening, and part of it I think it's punishment on myself...so I have another day to think if I will cancel on Thirsday to leave him be.