Thanks all for your loving support. I was expecting negativity towards this post because it's so upsetting. I sure wouldn't say it allowed amongst the people around me, I fear they would not understand my true intentions. Today's another day, and so was yesterday. I already feel much better as far as my children and I go. I took them to daycare and the changes we've been experiencing after three days is enormous and positive. My little boy is intrigued with learning, I sense that is apart of me in him because I was always the same way as a child. He recently turned three and can write his name (sideways but still), I find that fascinating.

I feel much better today and I did yesterday as well towards them. We had loads of fun last night, worked on potty training, and colored together. I didn't cook but we went to the Chinese buffet instead. As far as feeding them goes it's not that bad, it's just the motivation to do it. If I feel to down I pop a kids cuisine in the microwave and that keeps them happy, but the majority of the time I cook (at the best of my abilities!)..haha.

It will get better, and I'm sure I will have my lows again, especially during the summer when my classes end. But with the daycare three days and week and my job I will be busy enough to distract myself when I get to this point.

I appreciate you all, thank you for understanding.

Des