I should start off by saying I've contacted a therapist who has listed psychosis and major mental illness under his topics but he hasn't called me back to set up a date. But at the same time, I'm extremely paranoid about getting a therapist. I'm scared I'll back out at the last minute. It freaks me out at the thought of telling someone everything and knowing they're keeping notes and remembers everything. I feel like this makes me very vulnerable and that something bad will happen. My voice keep threatening me and this whole thing is making everything worse (I'm not currently on meds. They don't work) and I don't know what to do. I'm scared what will happen if I don't find someone to talk to (my only friend I told everything to told me she couldn't handle me anymore and asked me to stop talking about personal stuff) but I feel like something bad will happen if I do find someone to talk to. So I'm going crazy because I don't even know what to think or do.