I'm thinking about going to therapy while taking mdma, my friend told me it helps to be open and talk about everything without anxiety and he has a book about this substance where was written about using this drug at therapy session and that it was hepful.
Yes it's illegal and I know I can lose my T once again or even worse got to the police or psych ward that's why I think I will go together with my friend till the T's door and ask him to wait for me.

Has anyone did something like that? What drugs did you take? Was it helpful or horrible?
Do you think it's good or bad idea?

I'm too anxious at sessions, I can't open myself, I'm blocked and can't get right words out of my mouth and last sessions was drama and I wanted to kill myself because I felt too horrible.