I wouldn't. I don't do drugs either, but there's other reasons why this might be a bad idea...

- Have you ever taken it before? If not, you don't know how you'll react. What if you have a bad reaction, get sick, or get more anxious?

- If it does work, and you're more open and talkative... will you regret it when the drug wears off? Will it make more anxious and unhappy later, when you realize you've said things that maybe weren't willing to share?

- This isn't a good way to overcome anxiety, in my opinion (and I have tons of anxiety too). It's trying to shortcut creating a safe environment and learning to trust your T, and using a drug to cope with the emotion. If you have anxiety - that's OK. That's important, and it's probably there for a reason. It's better to work through it - talk about it, work with your T to feel safer, take small risks until you can trust your T. This can take time... but again, that's ok!

Have you thought about any other ways to work with your T on this? (And, this is a fairly new T for you, right? So some anxiety is totally normal!). Have you thought about writing things you want to tell your T, or talking to them about the anxiety? Does he/she know how anxious you feel?