So It's getting to the point where I can't be romantic with my boyfriend (e.g. look at the moon together) because I'm afraid that when i do I know I'll think of the other guy- not that i want it to be him but just knowing that I'm not supposed to and then bam it happens. That doesn't mean to say i don't have romantic moments with him because I do- I just take them in my own context and feel them . I feel like a C U NEXT TUESDAY because he loves me with all his heart and it hurts my heart when this happen because i want to get lost in the moment and turn off- but i can't. Then i mentally hurt myself and i mean chopping off limbs, slicing my head head of or drilling into my brain and psychically removing the thought. I honestly don't know what to do- I'm happy with my life and this is the only thing that is preventing me from being 100% happy. I couldn't imagine life without my happy smiley man Jack. It is literally ripping my heart out at the moment- I just think what it the point of living if this is what life will be like. But i have to believe that the point of living and trying to get over this is that one day I will be happy 100% with my man which is the ONLY thing that keepe me going. Anybody tell me things get better.. Please