Your comments about seeing nothing funny is your first problem. You automatically become so defensive as if I am attacking you(Possibly your traits). I also do not get when you say that I point out your not a narcissist as I don't recall ever saying if you are or not. Even so WHO AM I to say what you have??? As far as therapy I spent a year with two of them. It was so difficult to start with one, go through all the crap just to replay it again for the second one. Neither of then were equipped to handle MY issues. I started to notice that they would bring things up that they were comfortable with. They too wanted to show that they had knowledge in what they understood but at the same time their knowledge of me was ZERO. I would tell them things and they would look at me like I had two heads. They would try to explain/relate and I wouldn't get it. They would say do you know what I mean or understand and I would say no because..... I know that there is a T somewhere that I could probably benefit from but it is really hard to commit myself again and worry about wasting my time. Therapists seem to be comfortable with the normal crap of relationship/family issues. Depression and things that are so big in their communities. When it comes to what I have it seems there are not many out their equipped to understand my thought process. I see, feel and react different than most. Im not worried about if I can get out of bed today, anxiety, social interactions, the way my wife talks to me and so on. The same very things they can understand and speak to someone about. I wonder why I have plans that are not healthy, why I can only care about what effects me. How I can keep silent to know the pain it causes and not care. I have so many things I can write of with the faults I need to work on. I am bored of talking about why me, why did this happen, why was I raised the way I was. Past will not change so screw it. To be honest I try medicine and it does nothing, I tried therapy and it did nothing. Maybe because I feel as if the only one who can help me is me!!