Hi

I have these intrusive and permanent idea who keep making me up and down in my mood. One moment they're nice just to be cruel afterward. They are managing to make me believe that I should be scared all the time. I don't know what to do. I can't live this anymore. I wanna die. bue then I'm scared of death. Did anybody overcome ocd by their own ? Or did you need medication ?
They made me only able to believe bad thing about me, but they would say nice things to me, just to take them back and make me feel miserable. I lost faith in everything. PLEASE HELP