I don't know how long I've actually had depression but I started to be unhappy in my life about 6 or 7 years ago. Now, after a couple severe losses and regained my somewhat life, this last loss it seems I am really stuck. My family knows I'm not myself and not happy and miserable and when they ask me questions like what do I want to do? What makes me happy? Why I stay stuck? I cry because I can only answer I don't know, I don't remember what staying happy feels like and loving your life. My mom even thinks its so bad I need to go into the hospital again but I'm so past feeling emotions I just say I'm fine. My mother asks me what she can do and when I tell her nothing can make me happy its like she doesn't believe me, when really I've been so lost I forgot I was lost and where I was suppose to go and forgot who I was. Can people with depression ever find a happy life ahead of them? I thought I had but I am back to where I was, maybe I thought I was better but now with my recent loss I am more lost now and now more aware of it.