I need some help...I've always had extremely low self-esteem and, unfortunately, every day seems to be an "ugly day" for me...I'm tired of feeling ugly and it's ruining my life. I can't even go out in public without thinking of how ugly everyone around me must think I am. About eight of every ten thoughts I have are about how ugly I believe I am. It's gotten to the point where I mainly stay inside and it takes a lot of strength to go anywhere, hell, even to sit out on the front porch. I don't know what to do about this. People say I'm not ugly but I can't believe them. I need help because I'm tired of feeling this way. Ugly thoughts are ruining my life!!

By the way: No I am not seeing a therapist.
I can't see one right now, so please don't suggest this.

Thank you.