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Originally Posted by Disorder7
Yeah, if it was just a case of being moody, I'd try it without meds. But it's the panic I can't handle. I've done things like pull over in my car and stumble around in traffic, I've tried to jump out of moving cars, and I've crawled up on strangers' porches, knocked on their doors and had them call 911.
For me, no meds just isn't an option. I just have to find one that sucks less.
I'm happy for those who have an option of being med free.
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Yeah your anxiety is pretty bad, it's scary huh? Finding a med that doesn't suck is hard, impossible almost. I'm crushed I can't take the lamictal because I actually felt good while taking it. The depakote is making me so tired right now I'm having a hard time staying awake. I know that will go away after a couple of weeks but I'm already tired all the time anyway. And the anxiety is keeping me from working right now. I can't drive. Every time I get behind the wheel I start freaking out. I don't even know what brought this on.
I've always had anxiety but not like this. Just out of nowhere it's gotten horrible and I can't control it like I use to be able to.
So I'm pretty much stuck at home like a stinking hermit. I hate it.
On top of all that I feel like I'm always drunk. I don't drink, who needs to drink when I'm always feeling weird anyway.
It would be nice to not be on meds. But feeling like i'm about to crawl out of my skin or feeling nothing but anger isn't an option either.
I'm wondering if I'll ever be like I use to be, or if I'm even going to be able to go back to work. I't just seems like everything is getting worse not better. Almost like everything is coming to a crescendo or a point of blowing up and just losing my sh#t. Like I'm about to have a full blown manic attack but I have no energy so it wouldn't happen. Sigh.....who knows
