I don't have the energy right now to exercise (in a deep depression) but i look in the mirror and all i see is a fat (even tho im not considered "fat") disgusting slob that needs to lose weight. So my solution?...not eating, and if i do eat, i go throw it up anyways. i know this isn't healthy, but in my mind neither is my obesity. the only way i can lose weight, especially since im not exercising, is to starve. this is a way to self punish or self hurt i know, but at the same time the hurt, the pain in my stomach....feels good. but what really hurts is this thinking, i'm trapped in it and can't seem to break it.
just writing here, in hopes of finding out im not alone.