Well, I think i finally finished binging. It was a horrible day and while I'm disappointed - incredibly so - I guess that there's no other way than up.

I'm nauseous and bloated. I'm sad, feeling pathetic and angry... but, I'm going to do this. It's going to be okay - I guess that's all I can focus on. I really want to be healthy, able to have food in the house that's good and just have a little of it. My goal is to make it to Christmas without sweets and binge eating. It's my goal. And to get back out among people.