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Originally Posted by ylenol_planet
Does anyone of you share the same situation? All of my friends see my as the loud, cheerful and really fun to be with kind of gal. I do laugh a lot and I laugh at simple, silliest things.
I have never opened up to anyone about my inner struggles. Well, I had tried but all i got was the same "I know you. You're a very strong person." "You'll get through it..." "it's just a phase.." All of these blah blah blah didnt help. So i stopped and just kept it all to myself and continue being the "jolly me".
I had more than a few glasses of drinks again last night with my friends. We laughed and made fun of life. I went to bed happy. But when I woke up this morning, the familiar dark feeling came back.
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I was just working in a very hostile environment & started drinking to forget work and be happy but the depression made it worse. I got to where if i went more then a day without drinking i would start to feel bad and shake. My wife was not happy because i was coming home more & more smashed every time. So she talked me into quitting the job. I was still able to get unemployment because of the hostile environment & she will tell you i am more my self since i left that place. There is one thing about being happy when you drink but when you drink depressed it's never a good out come.