I would love to work on them, but dont know how, i dont believe in psychologists, been to 6 before i was in high school. and they all were bull. Always going to the same question, how do i feel about the fact my dad left us when i was only 10 months old, for me, it doesnt bother me at all, he came back into my life when i turned 14 (he didnt want to deal with the child stage i guess)

Regarding not finding the right girl. She i believe is the perfect one for me, when people say she might not be the one for me, i go straight to angry, and all my previous girls, i never cared, but this one, i want her in my life. Shes good for me, she made me talk about my demons, My kinks, stuff i feel. why i think i feel a certain way. She's the only one ever who made me want to talk about it. But i haven't told her that i dont know how to emotionally feel affection, its easy to show (act) not to really feel it. i wrote that in a letter to her, still need to give it to her, but im scared it will scare her away, but she has told me countless times, theres nothing i can do that will scare her away, but i have this fear of rejection, that could be a subliminal thing from my dad, dont now.