Flashbacks are returning hard. Got really triggered in therapy last time and I can't seem to pull out of it. I want to bawl my eyes out, but there's no place to do that; no safe person to do it with... the flashbacks bring more complete memories, and they are unrelenting. I've been rehearsing my mantra that is supposed to remind me I'm in the here and now, not the past. The words are starting to blend together and not make sense because I've said them so often recently.
Every little thing makes me jump again. I thought that it had finally calmed down a few weeks ago, but it's back. None of my usual coping skills are helping. I hate this so much. I just want to be able to get through the days without feeling so terrified and alone...