I totally have this anxiety. and have not gotten over it at all but the last time I told my T something completely disgusting she was still the same T and seems to think the same of me . I have not discussed it any further at all im scared to push it also. but maybe the only way to see that this feeling is not true is to share the yuck and see that it doesn't change how he sees you over time . easier said then done . sorry not more helpful