Thank you all. Yes, medication is a useful tool right now as it has been a really difficult time in my life. I really crashed when my son was sick.

I see my T once a week. On a few occasions I have asked for extra sessions but can't really afford to go more often. I have been doing some really difficult work and I guess I am impatient for healing. I know it takes time and I know that we can only do what we can do but still I want progress. I feel like my therapy has not moved along at the pace I would like but a lot of time was spent on support during a crisis and we have only just begun workng on me.

Life stole my life. I guess it's not so much what I had intended but what I had not intended. I always thought I was so flexible but trauma after trauma became more than I could bear. So, my life is changing yet again, and I feel like I have lost the flexibility to roll with the punches and redefine one more time...

Big sigh...oh I am so tired.