Storm,
I used to drive a whole lot for a living, and had many near misses much like you described; and then have been involved in several minor accidents too.
Because of our coping skills being so messed up because of our disease it really does shake us up. What helps me, is to realize that God was looking out for me that day, and will continue to do so. When it's my time to go, I know I will be welcomed into His arms.
I know it's easier said than done, but just count your blessings that you were watched over that day, and be grateful that you're time here isn't over.
Perhaps I over simplify, but when it happens to me, I freak out sometimes too. Welcome to the forums, and thanks for sharing. Don't feel pathetic, you're not alone.
Jon
(((((storm24)))))