I'm not sure if it is transference or reality, tbh... But I did email the couples therapist to see if it would upset her to see me sliding scale if I was already seeing someone else sliding scale for individual therapy. Now, I wait.

If she is okay with it, then I guess I meet with her and decide whether or not to see my individual therapist anymore, and then if I do, I have to see if HE cares that I'm seeing a couples therapist sliding scale with my partner.. I'm worried about him getting upset but really my partner is the one paying for the majority of the couples therapy and that's why it's possible ... I just want to get what I need without taking advantage of people.. But do I even need therapy? It seems like an unhealthy luxury sometimes