You're one of my favorite people on these boards MKAC!

Such deep feelings of blackness and unworthiness need to be countered, if not through therapy, than by SOMETHING. Because they are simply not true, and until you believe it in your heart of hearts, you aren't *healed.*

We all fall short in some areas.

When I look at what's going on in the world, with the killing and gross violence and horrible human rights abuses, I think that there is a little bit of darkness in all of us and a LOT of darkness in some of us.

But, I'd reserve the worst descriptions for people who are committing atrocities against humanity.

Of course, when you are in the middle of it -- feeling awful and worthless and misunderstood -- it is little comfort to hear, "You're not so bad. You didn't ____ anybody."

I know that. But when I feel the most worthless, I've needed other people to help me out of that spot. People who can attest to the basic goodness in me, to help me see it for myself, have been Godsends in my life. And then once I'm out of that dark unworthy place, I can be more objective and truly look around and say, "I am trying my best and I'm not so bad."

You're not so bad, either.