i feel like a terrible person, like i suck the life out of everyone around me and 'contaminate' them.

idk. my t tries to work on this with me.

within therapy, i decided i was going to try to see if i could piss him off. so far, he's handled everything skillfully. i like challenges, so he told he i couldn't piss him off/make him hate me and now i want to try.

i don't know if that would help you. i have an irritating need to be right. and i'm sure i'm a miserable person :P