Some of these replies made me kind of sad and immature. Still. I think I tried not to give in for fear that I would say something inappropriate. I felt like allowing myself to have misguided anger towards her could result in some serious unnecessary drama and guilt on my part. I'm glad that in Leah's case you lived through it lol, but to know it was well worth it makes me wonder if I should just give in. I'd love to have a major breakthrough like that but it's hard to think i'll be able to find the regret survivable. I'm not sure if my struggle was in believing that she would allow me to show her those shadow parts (as Artemis labeled them; which I loved) or the fact that I would have revealed that side of me for an argument that was unnecessary. I agree, SnakeCharmer, that my behavior did exhibit a cold form of anger which is why I felt like I was still being argumentative by not talking to her - what is one to do in such a lose/lose situation?? But yes, you may be right as T has commented on how difficult it is to get me to disagree (openly) with someone elses opinion... I didn't understand JustShakey, what you meant by "refusing to accept the dark parts of yourself essentially means you're pushing at least part of your responsibility for yourself onto the people around you..." Wouldn't it be the other way around by not lashing out and blaming others for "making me angry in the first place"? Lol Growlycat, I totally felt like that brat you describe. But it was still better than feeling angry and crazy.