Thank you. .. yah it's not a form of epilepsy and and has been ruled dissociation by my therapist and dr.... they've been doing extensive emdr with me (not just the eye kind.. the paddles you put in your hands have worked way better for me)... I can't recall about 4 years of my life when I was much younger... a room in the house my parents used to live at *deleted due to to much info*