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Originally Posted by Depletion
That sounds like such a lovely and sweet appointment. I'm glad that you were able to open up and be honest. My T told me that she knew I was BPD from the first time she met me. I think T's just have that sixth sense. I like hearing that they see things like that so immediately, it really makes me feel like they are being attentive and caring.
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LCM is very attentive and caring except a little wacky but that's kinda to be expected in this field lol. For the most part she's really great about knowing what I'm not saying. Like really crazy good. But sometimes, she's really off, mostly about paranoia of losing people I love.
Like today, she was driving without a seatbelt and I got upset and said I'm worried about her dying.
Her: "why are you worried? That means you want me to die"
Me: "dammit no you see I avoid saying that because I know you're gonna give me that **** in response. I have no clue why except you are clearly projecting the fact that you want everyone to die all the time"
Her: "what??!!!"
Me: "that's exactly how I feel when you say **** like that so stop it"
She laughed really hard. But I don't really get why she always draws that conclusion. It's pretty obvious. I'm terrified of abandonment, not suppressing homicidal feelings.
But I feel like BPD is different than picking up on CSA. I got pretty good at figuring out who is bipolar in the hospital (spoiler- everyone). I guess it might not be.