Hello.

I was diagnosed with Depression 15-Years ago. I have been on meds since.

Over the years, sometimes the medication helps, sometimes not so much.

I recently switched my anti-depressant and am taking Remeron; It does seem to help. It seems to be working.

But, I still feel sadness. Why? It is a long story and concerns many factors.

I am sad for my life and for the lives of others'.

I also have Asperger Syndrome (High-functioning Autism) and have very few friends. (Difficulty making friends is an element of this condition). I live alone and besides my cats, spend A LOT of time alone. I work from home as a community forum manager for a company so I am not forced to even leave my apartment to work. It's both a blessing and a curse. I never leave the house.

The sadness invades and consumes. I picture my future days and figure the best is behind me. I am just trying to survive.

-Matthew