It's upsetting to see how you've been upended by therapists either leaving or (as with the current one) having to cut back. The unreliability of it all is the last thing you need. It's always hard to read what a therapist means, even when it's first hand, so I won't try to guess what she's got going on. I do trust your gut sense, though, and hope that it leads to some clarity with her. She does sound like a good therapist. So that's something to hang your hat on. Be well. I'm pulling for you.