It's seriously bugging me that I can't play music. I used to play piano, oboe and recorders. I had to stop 20+ years ago because I developed tinnitus from a job. Music was very important to me. It transported me to a different world. I sort of died when I stopped playing music. I know it was my conscious decision to do so, but playing aggravated the tinnitus and made it louder and louder. Still... I hear beautiful music and I ache inside. I get depressed because I would rather play the music than listen to it. I still haven't gotten over not having music in my life. I keep hoping that the tinnitus will go away. That's rare. I often don't see the point of living if I can't ever play music again.

Just needed to vent. Really wish this tinnitus would go away.