I saw my therapist today for the first time since July, and it was a really good session. I told him that i stopped all my meds except lamotrigine, and he thought that was a good decision. He thought my energy seemed better, which i agree with. He pretty much validated all the things i have been thinking about this stuff. Then i said that i worry that maybe i just have poor insight, and everything is going to turn bad without meds. He said that doubt proves i am sane, because the mark of true insanity is certainty - all the evil things that have happened in the world were done by people who were certain they were right. My pdoc is certain that i will fall to pieces without meds, but there is no way for her to be certain about that. There is nothing in the world that is guaranteed. I'm not going to live inside superstition