Fluff, Stronger is right! You are not a WASTE to humanity, and just the fact that you had the courage to post your story up here, your innermost thoughts and feelings, proves how incredibly strong you are. The fact that you care about the well-being of your brother and sister-in-law shows how beautiful a person you are, and that kind of inner beauty always shines inside AND out! This isn't the end, my dear, this is just yet another obstacle for you to overcome and prove to yourself how amazing you are. Trust me, if you keep trying, you will not be disappointed. Sending you much love