I have this problem. I just had a memory I shared in therapy that had broadened - like a new part came back - and I actually had access to some feelings with it. This is not the norm for me.....I actually cried in therapy for the first time after over a year and a half. But the next week it was like it didn't really happen. Like I made it up. I feel ashamed even at the consideration of that because I know I didn't make it up. I'm pissed that I can't access the feelings again. It feels WORSE to be disconnected from them, no matter how horrible it felt. I can't stand the disconnection.

Anyone else experience anything like this? If so, is there a trick to staying connected that I'm missing?