Hi lunatic soul. I am a male at 24 but I was a virgin all my life until about 6 months ago, when I found the love of my life. My girlfriend is my first and last girlfriend, and sex is great. I think you're right for waiting to find a person you can love, so ditch your current boyfriend now. You already know you don't love him, so why are you staying with him? You have to find the right person and then everything will fall into place. I struggle with depression a lot, and my therapist told me that I should have sex with a lot of girls to find out what I like. But for me I couldn't really ask for more from my girlfriend, and she's satisfied with me. I'm not religious at all. And yeah, masturbation isn't nearly as good as having sex with somebody you love. I used to masturbate a lot when I was a virgin, but now that I know what sex feels like when I'm with my girl, masturbating is pretty much the last thing I want to do, unless she asks me to or something.

So overall, what I think you should do is 1. dump your boyfriend, 2. find somebody to love, and 3. pursue your dreams. About the erotica photoshooting, just beware that if you do get another boyfriend, some guys will get jealous that you're showing your body off to others. But you will find the right person and you will know when you do, and if you want sex before you do, there is nothing wrong with having sex. It feels good. Just be responsible with yourself.