Welcome to PC. I am very glad you found us. I do not have ADD or ADHD but I have found other sections of this forum to be filled with understanding and supportive people who have similar situations.

Way to go on the job. That is a big deal. You are right there is a huge disparity between college educated and not. I would encourage you to go back if you want to. As for meds it is a tricky game that many of us here struggle with. You might post in the psyche meds section as lots of people here take amphetamines with other meds. My opinion is that is Adderal works and helps you than take it. I don't think the anti depressants are good for anxiety but they work for some. They have proven to be pretty effective for OCD, at least certain ones. Unfortunately we are kind of stuck with the benzos for anxiety because they have never developed much else. There are some other things though.

You sound very intelligent to me. I hope you can find some help and support here.